Thursday, September 28, 2017
Tuesday, August 22, 2017
P-word for sure!!! Plan.
So "The Plan" has been shared with many family members. Ones that we shared our "plan" with look at us like we are nuts! They cannot believe that hubby, the dog and I are doing this "radical" thing!!
Vicariously through this plan we have I am taken to a time of our past as Americans where ideology such as Faith, Family, Friends and Entrepreneurship were the backbone of society in the United States of America. People came to America to seek refuge from religious persecution. Then people in droves packed their suitcases to load on a boat seeking economic opportunities that this new continent provided. People of all skills what we would call white collar and blue collar trades came to America... Land of the "Free" , free in thought and free to economically grow and thrive. Times were brutal back then... If you wanted a home, you had to invest some sweat equity into it. This means securing the lumber, cutting the lumber and then building the structure. If you wanted a meal, you had to hunt and kill or pick it and prepare it. You need something to wear... well you get it!!!
Today it is easy. Go to work many hours, make lots of money to pay lots of money for everything we desire. We click,scroll and voila!!! The items we desire are at our finger tips. It amazes me how dynamics of Family has changed. As parents we communicate with our children through texts, snap chats and twitter. Our family gatherings are few and far between due to the fluctuating work schedules and the demands of our home environment for yet more money to provide for more things and gadgets so we can spend quality time with our children and extended family staring at some form of a screen. Our friendships are forged at the forums on the computer our emotional supports and stresses come from social media. I find that people are not thinking outside of the box when it comes to economic growth because the box does all the thinking for them. This will leave a society struggling to figure out how to solve problems on their own. I worry about our future as Americans unless we become more grounded to each other, our environment and society. Few years ago The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-Day Saints had this to say to the world about society- click on this
Family: A Proclaimation to the World
Hubby and I have worked many years to obtain many things. These are things that at the moment brought happiness. Our home is full of things... We continue to dust clean and move all these things that have been obtained through the years. Finally, after discussion with hubby we have both come to the same conclusion. We have worked many years to obtain all this and yet what is really important to us is Faith, Family, Friends and Country. While we are young enough to enjoy we are going to spend a period of time traveling this great United States of America in an RV! Yes you are reading this correctly!!! Along this adventure we are going to start on we will be able to spend time with family that live in different states, make friends from different places and just purely upfront enjoy that land that GOD has given us!!! The Adventure will force us to go back to seeking and enjoying the simple pleasures of life, this is is not going to be the easy route but no matter how long this adventure takes us it will assuredly be fulfilling .... This is going to begin through downsizing the items in our lives that are weighing us down and inhibiting enlightenment and enjoyment. We both expect that someday when we reflect back on our life we will be able to say "WOW! That adventure was awesome!" So as we embark on this, I will share with everyone the process on this adventure . This is not a hap-hazard decision, there is a process to all of this so that it is planned, then executed in a way as to not burden the ones we love and so that it is a FUN, enlightening adventure!
So with that being said.... stop in for the next blog.... on the next P word....
PURGE!
Vicariously through this plan we have I am taken to a time of our past as Americans where ideology such as Faith, Family, Friends and Entrepreneurship were the backbone of society in the United States of America. People came to America to seek refuge from religious persecution. Then people in droves packed their suitcases to load on a boat seeking economic opportunities that this new continent provided. People of all skills what we would call white collar and blue collar trades came to America... Land of the "Free" , free in thought and free to economically grow and thrive. Times were brutal back then... If you wanted a home, you had to invest some sweat equity into it. This means securing the lumber, cutting the lumber and then building the structure. If you wanted a meal, you had to hunt and kill or pick it and prepare it. You need something to wear... well you get it!!!
Today it is easy. Go to work many hours, make lots of money to pay lots of money for everything we desire. We click,scroll and voila!!! The items we desire are at our finger tips. It amazes me how dynamics of Family has changed. As parents we communicate with our children through texts, snap chats and twitter. Our family gatherings are few and far between due to the fluctuating work schedules and the demands of our home environment for yet more money to provide for more things and gadgets so we can spend quality time with our children and extended family staring at some form of a screen. Our friendships are forged at the forums on the computer our emotional supports and stresses come from social media. I find that people are not thinking outside of the box when it comes to economic growth because the box does all the thinking for them. This will leave a society struggling to figure out how to solve problems on their own. I worry about our future as Americans unless we become more grounded to each other, our environment and society. Few years ago The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-Day Saints had this to say to the world about society- click on this
Hubby and I have worked many years to obtain many things. These are things that at the moment brought happiness. Our home is full of things... We continue to dust clean and move all these things that have been obtained through the years. Finally, after discussion with hubby we have both come to the same conclusion. We have worked many years to obtain all this and yet what is really important to us is Faith, Family, Friends and Country. While we are young enough to enjoy we are going to spend a period of time traveling this great United States of America in an RV! Yes you are reading this correctly!!! Along this adventure we are going to start on we will be able to spend time with family that live in different states, make friends from different places and just purely upfront enjoy that land that GOD has given us!!! The Adventure will force us to go back to seeking and enjoying the simple pleasures of life, this is is not going to be the easy route but no matter how long this adventure takes us it will assuredly be fulfilling .... This is going to begin through downsizing the items in our lives that are weighing us down and inhibiting enlightenment and enjoyment. We both expect that someday when we reflect back on our life we will be able to say "WOW! That adventure was awesome!" So as we embark on this, I will share with everyone the process on this adventure . This is not a hap-hazard decision, there is a process to all of this so that it is planned, then executed in a way as to not burden the ones we love and so that it is a FUN, enlightening adventure!
So with that being said.... stop in for the next blog.... on the next P word....
PURGE!
Saturday, April 1, 2017
Self- Awareness
I remember when I was young I was this skinny 5 foot 6 inch 110 pound Girl. This for my height was far too skinny. However at that time in my life when I looked into the mirror all that was seen was the big butt. I did not see that the bubble butt I had was inherited was rounded not BIG. The boys and the girls in middle school seemed to always have something to say about my bubble butt, actually, in reality they didn't talk about it all the time. I know that the kids who would from time to time pick on me for my bubble butt did not realize how incredibly self- conscious about my butt size, even though in reality I was incredibly skinny. I remember observing people get on the scale weighing around 150 pounds and quietly thinking to myself I will never weigh that much! In my mind tipping the scale over 150 pounds seemed morbidly obese.
I was three months pregnant with my first child and weighed in at 115 pounds that a the OB doctor gave me only weeks to put on 5 pounds or I was facing hospitalization and an insertion of a feed tube. This is the moment that I became aware that I had a body image issue. I was scared to death to allow my body do what it naturally does when one is growing another human inside of them. The doctor put me on an eating schedule. Slowly the weight came on and I was able to avoid the hospitalization. This is where I learned a lot about anorexia, body image perception and the effects on your brain and body.
Many years later, I had thrown in the towel. My weight continued to climb upwards. I now have surpassed my definition of morbid obesity by MANY pounds! My Ideal recommended weight is 130 pounds. I eat because I am bored, I eat because I am upset, I eat because I need to be doing something to keep my brain on task. I eat socially. I eat because it is time to eat. I rarely eat because I am hungry. The hunger center in an anorexic's brain just doesn't function properly it does not tell you to eat because your body needs nourishment due to the fact that the anorexic's brain isn't triggered physiologically normally, this can lead to over compensating when the person throws in the towel on appearance and starts to "feed" the emotions. Emotional eating is very dangerous for a person who is struggling with their coping mechanisms. Emotional eaters easily become addicted to food as it feeds the pleasure centers in the brain and it feels good and satisfying at the moment. Then after the let down (within 2 hours) you are looking for the oral and sensory stimulation of food again.
I looked to food to make my brain feel good. I did not look to food as something my body needed.
Now weighing in at almost 180 I have awakened to the fact that I am over weight. I don't feel good because I am unhealthy. I have not been eating the right things to nourish my body. My health issues will continue to progress unless I do something to change the trajectory. My body is filled with toxins from both my environment and from what my body is storing through bad food and fat. I am going to be documenting my progress and detailing my steps that I take. Like anything else in life anything is possible as long as you keep placing one foot in front of the next. I am making this experience public and coming out of the closet with this so that maybe I can promote understanding and help someone along the way. Most of the time when people think of anorexia we think of a skeleton of a person.. Truth is , it is a dysfunction of your perception and the hunger center of your brain and the weight swing can go both ways it all depends on what supersedes the visual perception or the emotional void.
Step one to over coming anything is life is self- awareness and accountability. I have an eating disorder. This eating disorder is a problem due to the fact that I am not happy with the effects of it. My eating is a problem because I have refused to acknowledge it. My eating is a problem because I make unhealthy choices of what my body needs at the moment. My eating is a problem because I eat for the wrong reasons. My eating is a problem due to lack of self-control.
I hope whoever reads this does so with an open mind. I have made a commitment to be healthy. I will be following up with posts on my journey and the steps I am taking for a successful life change!
xoxo
Peace and Paint!
Taressa
this is the picture that drove home my weight gain for me.... I look forward to doing another picture with Theresa Caputo next year and having a comparison.... maybe I will actually fit in a little cute dress!
I was three months pregnant with my first child and weighed in at 115 pounds that a the OB doctor gave me only weeks to put on 5 pounds or I was facing hospitalization and an insertion of a feed tube. This is the moment that I became aware that I had a body image issue. I was scared to death to allow my body do what it naturally does when one is growing another human inside of them. The doctor put me on an eating schedule. Slowly the weight came on and I was able to avoid the hospitalization. This is where I learned a lot about anorexia, body image perception and the effects on your brain and body.
Many years later, I had thrown in the towel. My weight continued to climb upwards. I now have surpassed my definition of morbid obesity by MANY pounds! My Ideal recommended weight is 130 pounds. I eat because I am bored, I eat because I am upset, I eat because I need to be doing something to keep my brain on task. I eat socially. I eat because it is time to eat. I rarely eat because I am hungry. The hunger center in an anorexic's brain just doesn't function properly it does not tell you to eat because your body needs nourishment due to the fact that the anorexic's brain isn't triggered physiologically normally, this can lead to over compensating when the person throws in the towel on appearance and starts to "feed" the emotions. Emotional eating is very dangerous for a person who is struggling with their coping mechanisms. Emotional eaters easily become addicted to food as it feeds the pleasure centers in the brain and it feels good and satisfying at the moment. Then after the let down (within 2 hours) you are looking for the oral and sensory stimulation of food again.
I looked to food to make my brain feel good. I did not look to food as something my body needed.
Now weighing in at almost 180 I have awakened to the fact that I am over weight. I don't feel good because I am unhealthy. I have not been eating the right things to nourish my body. My health issues will continue to progress unless I do something to change the trajectory. My body is filled with toxins from both my environment and from what my body is storing through bad food and fat. I am going to be documenting my progress and detailing my steps that I take. Like anything else in life anything is possible as long as you keep placing one foot in front of the next. I am making this experience public and coming out of the closet with this so that maybe I can promote understanding and help someone along the way. Most of the time when people think of anorexia we think of a skeleton of a person.. Truth is , it is a dysfunction of your perception and the hunger center of your brain and the weight swing can go both ways it all depends on what supersedes the visual perception or the emotional void.
Step one to over coming anything is life is self- awareness and accountability. I have an eating disorder. This eating disorder is a problem due to the fact that I am not happy with the effects of it. My eating is a problem because I have refused to acknowledge it. My eating is a problem because I make unhealthy choices of what my body needs at the moment. My eating is a problem because I eat for the wrong reasons. My eating is a problem due to lack of self-control.
I hope whoever reads this does so with an open mind. I have made a commitment to be healthy. I will be following up with posts on my journey and the steps I am taking for a successful life change!
xoxo
Peace and Paint!
Taressa
this is the picture that drove home my weight gain for me.... I look forward to doing another picture with Theresa Caputo next year and having a comparison.... maybe I will actually fit in a little cute dress!
Tuesday, January 24, 2017
OK so I am going to try to figure out this blogging ...
New to blogging --- Facebook page created
I have a facebook page created.. we are quickly figuring this out!!!
https://www.facebook.com/peachestopaint/?ref=aymt_homepage_panel
Have fun reading!!!! Have a most fabulous day today!! Keep in your mind today
Be the CHANGE you wish to see!! xoxo
https://www.facebook.com/peachestopaint/?ref=aymt_homepage_panel
Have fun reading!!!! Have a most fabulous day today!! Keep in your mind today
Be the CHANGE you wish to see!! xoxo
Hi! I am Taressa! I am Wife, Mother, Mamaw, business owner. Through my adventure through life I have learned many things about Love, Strife, Adventure, Grief, Spirituality and how to just awaken your soul to LIFE! This blog will have posts from RVing, canning peaches to awakening your soul in paint on canvas. My motto if from the movie Forest Gump "Life is like a box of chocolates.... You never know what you are going to get!" I like to open the box, you just might get one of those roll your eyes back into your head smooth, sinfully sweet chocolate morsel!
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